I dont know way I am here...perhaps cause cant sleep ..perhaps cause I dont be here for some pretty long time...perhaps I dont delete my space here even I quit writing cause I know somehow that one day I will come back...perhaps I want meet some old friens who still stay here and still write..perhaps...perhaps...

perhaps cause one of my life period is ower...and the next one will start tomorrow...

         so...way I stop writing...simply...one day I understand that there is nothing more to say....wery prosaic...

       well...t was pretty long time when I write something here last time...many things changed since that time...

I graduated academy..surprisingly I graduated it very good and professors want me to stay there to get master degree...I refuse...it is very interesting but it takes also much of my nerves and life...to be very good in something you must live in this...and to do something only to do its not in my style...I am player va bank...if i cant I stop...

....also this is related for my job...I had exclusive job...very exsotic..last 3 years I work in bank...I was the specialist for retrieving the credit debts...in other words I was dealing with persons who dont suceed to pay back money....it was pretty hard stuff... 3 years 8 hours dealing with people- see theyr anger,listen theyr problems and make the deals with them...mentaly pretty hard stuff...and at one moment I understand that I cant do this any more...

so...I quit...and tomorrow or to be  more correct after 11 hours I will go to France....we will see..may be forever...

I am scared and excited and curious .... the decision was taken ... and I am ready to jump in unknown....and start all from zero...

as the people used to say..<<<nothing happens without reason>>>....we will see........